Only one more day and I will be in Maryland spending time with Dave.  I can't wait.  I need a break from the everyday pressures of single parenting.  Plus, I get to hug my man

I will be gone Thursday to Monday so I won't be writing in my journal.  So, you will all have to just wait until I get back to get all the juicy details.............

Good News!!!!!  Dave has really been trying to show me his love which is one of the really important things that was coming between us.  He went through a lot yesterday in order to send me an email.  I was so happy.  He never sends me emails because he travels so much and usually doesn't have internet access but he made it happen yesterday and I was so ecstatic.  He is really trying hard to give me what I need in this relationship.  YEAH

Please pray for me while I am traveling and pray that Dave and I will be strong during the weekend. 

Have a great weekend all..............................I will................

I feel so lost without going to Apex today.  I was up late last night and my son Jordan had a friend over so we didn't go today.  It really makes a difference when you don't go.  I will spend a lot of time in the word today so I can feel at peace with myself.

My son's team won their first game of the season yesterday.  They have lost three and won one.  But hey, they looked great yesterday.  Their defense kicked butt.  You should have seen my son, the smallest one on the team, up against the tallest kid on the other team (which was easily 6 foot tall, no joke, he was taller than all the coaches), on the line.  My son was tight end and let's just say, he let that boy just come right across the line.  I didn't raise a stupid child............lol.  He would have crushed my boy.

Only 4 1/2 days and I will be with Dave.  I can't wait.  We have been through so much together and believe it or not, it has made us stronger.  I am trying very hard to be supportive of his job because I know that he needs to accomplish his goals before we can move on.  It is very hard, but I think I am doing a good job.  I just pray that God keeps giving me patience.  He is the only reason I have made it this far.  We are both committed to following him and doing what is glorifying to him.

Wow.........I have been lazy about writing this week.  I apologize my friends.

Dave and I are doing great.  We are reading scripture together and praying together every evening.  It is so calming to pray with him.  I know he is just overwhelmed with things going on right now and I pray that God uses me in any way that he wants to in order to help Dave.  Only 6 more days until I get off that airplane and into his arms..........woohoo.

I have experienced some feelings of loss lately.  I think it is because of my distance from my best friend.  She and I just don't have much in common anymore.  She is married, trying to get pregnant, just pretty self-absorbed lately and I miss her.

God blessed me with time with Tracy Leach yesterday.  We had so much fun together.  We went to Family Christian Bookstore to see Jan W. and just took our time reading, looking and just being thankful for God saving us.  I can't imagine ever going back to the life I lived before he saved me.  I am so thankful for his never-ending love and grace.  I want to shake people who aren't saved and say "What are you thinking?".  Don't they know what they are missing out on?  Don't they know that their life is so empty and meaningless without him?  WOW............how did I not know for so long?  Seems pretty ridiculous that I went 30 years without him.  Pretty stupid I know.

Anyway, please pray for Dave and I that we do not succumb to the temptations of sin next weekend when we are spending time together.  Pray that God just blesses our time together and that everything we do is glorifying to him.

Bad migraine today........not much to say except it hurts.  And, I can't wait to go to Maryland to see Dave.  Please pray for us that we will remain strong in sexual purity and only do the things that are glorifying to God. 

Also, please pray for Amy Lou as she is struggling with getting things together for her wedding.  I know everything will work out for them.  It has to because it is what God wants.

I skipped yesterday.......what was I thinking?  Hee hee.  Wow, the service yesterday.  It really was impactful for me.  Luke 22:39-46.  Great verses.  I have tried really hard to make my prayer life a little more routine but we could always use more work in that area.  I try not to be one of the people that only pray when I am down.  But, admittingly I am guilty of that sometimes.

Anyway, not too much happened yesterday except Dave bought a ticket for me to fly to Maryland to see him.  Yes, I am giving it another try.  I know that I have not been patient with him on this marriage thing so I am trusting in God to give me that patience.  If God wants us together, we will be together.  I know that and trust that fact.  What I do know for sure is that I love him.  We have only been together for 5 months so trying to make him make a decision about marriage is really too quick.  I have now realized that.  Not to say that he didnt have a part in the problems that we have had.  But, I can only be responsible for my mistakes. We love each other and want to be together so what do we have to lose by giving it all we've got?